My only wish now is that I meet someone who will accept me as you do.  Will be my best friend as you are.  Will know my deepest secrets and still say that I'm awesome, like you do.  The only thing I'd change is that he'd love me like I do you.  They told me to love and lose is worse than not loving at all, but to be honest I didn't know what I was missing out on so it was better. I hate how stupid I feel for having feelings.  But that's a product of my upbringing I suppose.  I have feelings.  I don't care anymore.  Hopefully they'll be returned one day, probably not from you cause I'm not waiting.  Thank you though for changing my life.