It's 10 pm on a Friday night.  I have to be up in six hours for a crazy long day.  For some unknown reason (okay I know why) I have decided to do a "Yes month".  For those of you that are familiar with the movie "Yes Man" you will now be say 'ahhhh', for those of you that have yet to see it, let me elaborate.  Yes to everything that is ever asked of me.  My version does have some limitations as I will not be getting into strangers cars or giving old men blow jobs.  But other than that it's game on..  Pretty much I'm trying to see if I am to restricted, if I'm not living enough, if I spend too much time by myself and not enough time making those memories that really matter in the end.  

(My cat is yowling outside and it's distracting....is that a mating call or do i need to rescue him....I'm never sure)

Anyhow tomorrow I work, and the next morning I work at 5, but tomorrow after work I'm taking off for a powwow fivish hours away, estimated to return 2 hours before work the next day. Usually I would have said no to my friend and stayed home and been responsible but I said yes.  So I'm heading out tomorrow for a grand adventure.  I hope it's awesome otherwise I'll never do a yes month again and I'll just get really good at blowing people off...oh wait....

Here is the thing with growing up in poverty.  I feel bad spending any sort of money, I hate it when I'm not responsible, I will literally work myself stupid (to the point where i thought my food was singing a song to me).  It's like a sickness.  I still don't have money, don't get me wrong, I'm well in the below poverty mark on the tax bracket but I have food and a house and a job and a car and enough spare change to supply my Dutch Bros addition.  But how much stuff am i missing out on just to try to get ahead in life just to die and really I only give a flying fuck about money to pay the bills.  So again I say fuck it (I'm not spending a lot of money don't worry bills first!!) and horray for yes month..  Let's make it a good one!! oh also it's my birthday month so ask me to do something awesome.

I think I'm going to change my middle name.  it's lame.

Still reading Dracula, it's taking me awhile and I don't know why cause it's a good one.

Seen Divergent 6 times in theaters....oh gawd

Got some more sleeve done.  Down to one (if I'm as badass as I think I am, which I'm probably not) more five hour session!!

You rock my face off.

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